Thursday, May 18, 2017

Course Reflection for FIQWS 10115 (Final)

Lesliebeth Rosario
FIQWS 10115
Professor Matyakubova
May 16, 2017
Course Reflection


Throughout the whole semester of  FIQWS 10115 we wrote quite a few interesting papers and worked on some classwork.  We started with a Literacy Narrative to in a way introduce ourselves.  We learned how to develop a paper step by step and through the use of required texts such as the Norton Field Guide To Writing and many more.  We underwent a few peer review sessions to further better our writing.  The peer review helped us develop a more formal way of phrasing paragraphs and how can sentences sound well put together.  We learned the basics on sentence structure and how to use conjunctions like fanboys and wabbits.  The beginning of the semester was the initial stages in preparations for the many papers on our Jewish American Literature class that is a part of it.
In the Jewish American Literature class we read a few works by Jewish authors.  We would analyze them as a whole to understand the type of works specific Jewish authors have contributed.  We read works from authors like Henry Roth, Cynthia Ozick, Saul Bellow, Tova Mirvis, and a few more and how they portrayed characters in a religious yet “outside-of-their-Jewishness” ways.  We developed papers like a Literacy Narrative, Exploratory Essay on a Jewish author, Summary and Response paper, Annotated Bibliography, and a Researched and Critical Analysis Paper reflection.  While writing each paper we created multiple drafts so that we can go back to them in the future and add more to it before each final draft.
By the time the end of the semester came we were working more with technology.  We started having computer classroom sessions and worked mainly through Blackboard.  We did classwork such as analyzing poems and concept mapping.  We had to finish it off with a presentation and a blog in which we used BlogSpot.   The presentations were on different topics and we were graded by the class and also gave feedback on how well we did.  It showed how well we interpreted the class and on the chosen topic as a whole.  Towards the finalization of the term I learned a lot from my professors as well.  They were always open about how to reach them in case we ever need feedback while class is not in session.  We would email them and also visit them at their office when they were available.  The best part was when they gave feedback one on one about how well we write our papers and what can we do to get a higher grade.  They spoke to us about going to the writing center here at CCNY where we can get professional help in developing our essay structure.  Overall it was a nice course, I did gain a lot of technology experience and I would recommend it to someone else who would be interested.

Course Reflection for FIQWS 10115 (Draft)

Lesliebeth Rosario
FIQWS 10115
Professor Matyakubova
May 16, 2017
Course Reflection Draft


Throughout the whole semester of  FIQWS 10115 we wrote quite a few interesting papers and worked on some classwork.  We started with a Literacy Narrative to in a way introduce ourselves.  We learned how to develop a paper step by step and through the use of required texts such as the Norton Field Guide To Writing and many more.  We underwent a few peer review sessions to further better our writing.  The peer review helped us develop a more formal way of phrasing paragraphs and how can sentences sound well put together.  We learned the basics on sentence structure and how to use conjunctions like fanboys and wabbits.  The beginning of the semester was the initial stages in preparations for the many papers on our Jewish American Literature class that is a part of it.
In the Jewish American Literature class we read a few works by Jewish authors.  We would analyze them as a whole to understand the type of works specific Jewish authors have contributed.  We read works from authors like Henry Roth, Cynthia Ozick, Saul Bellow, Tova Mirvis, and a few more and how they portrayed characters in a religious yet “outside-of-their-Jewishness” ways.  We developed papers like a Literacy Narrative, Exploratory Essay on a Jewish author, Summary and Response paper, Annotated Bibliography, and a Researched and Critical Analysis Paper reflection.  While writing each paper we created multiple drafts so that we can go back to them in the future and add more to it before each final draft.  
By the time the end of the semester came we were working more with technology.  We started having computer classroom sessions and worked mainly through Blackboard.  We did classwork such as analyzing poems and concept mapping.  We had to finish it off with a presentation and a blog in which we used blog spot.   The presentations were on different topics and we were graded by the class and also gave feedback on how well we did.  It showed how well we interpreted the class and on the chosen topic as a whole.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Research Question/Thesis, Concept-Map, Outline for Jewish Works and the theme Melancholy

Lesliebeth Rosario
FIQWS
Professor Matyakubova
April 24, 2017
Research Concept-Map, Thesis, Outline
Melancholy events in “Rosa” by Cynthia Ozick & Seize the Day by Saul Bellow





Research Thesis and Detailed Outline
Thesis: Tragic past or present events can lead to a depressing future and leave you to find a way a certain way of comfort as life goes on.

Paragraph #1) Introduction.  Philosophical information and the definition of Melancholy as a whole.
Paragraph #2) “Rosa” summary (Key points), Talk about her life what happened in the past and how she’s cooperating now.
Paragraph #3) “Rosa”/ Melancholy first example. Her daughter’s death and its impact on her.
Paragraph #4) “Rosa”/ Melancholy second example. She writes some letters in her daughter’s point of view and her overall achievement. Shows a result of isolation and depression and how her spirit lives on through these journals.
Paragraph #5) Seize the day summary (Key points). Who is Tommy Wilhelm and why is he in deep sadness.
Paragraph #6) Seize/ Melancholy first example. Feeling rejected by his father while living in the same building. On top of that he tries to look for comfort in his father but his father pays him no mind.
Paragraph #7) Seize/ Melancholy second example. His kids don’t love him and that’s another rejection.
Paragraph #8) Conclusion. What would Rosa’s daughter really be like today? Why did Wilky’s kids neglect him?
*Work cited page last*

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Final Critical Analysis Essay

Lesliebeth Rosario
Professor Kratka & Matyakubova
FIQWS
April 24, 2017
Critical Analysis Essay
Sadness Comes from Within
            Many different factors contribute to a person’s internal feelings.  Whether it’s a lost of some sort or finding out great news, people have different emotions.  One of the most commonly used concepts in stories or books is the function of melancholy and how it relates to the characters being portrayed in a scenario.  Melancholy is a feeling of pensive sadness typically with no obvious cause but can be a result of a past event that may have happened to a person.  It can lead to a deep depression and just lack of energy for some normal activities.  Cynthia Ozick and Saul Bellow furthered defined this theory through the use of characters in some of their amazing works.  Both works of literature use sadness and despair through the death of Magda in "Rosa" by Cynthia Ozick and the denial of Wilky from his loved ones in Seize the Day by Saul Bellow to express the aftermath of these traumatic events.
            “Rosa” by Cynthia Ozick is a second part to her short story “The Shawl” in which her daughter Magda was killed shocked by an electric fence during the cold times of the holocaust.  In this sequel, Rosa is seen a few years later in the city somehow free of the past horrors that haunt her.  In “The Shawl” she held her daughter under a shawl that was protecting her from sight while marching into concentration camps.  The unthinkable actions of her niece, Stella, got her daughter exposed after Stella took the shawl for her own comfort and left her to die when a guard came by and threw her against the elective fence used to secure the camps.  In the sequel she tells a man that her his Warsaw isn’t her Warsaw as she experience way different than he did during the holocaust.
            Rosa’s heart was crushed when her daughter died and had to live with it one way or another.  The death of Magda was what drew her conscious mind to survive in a positive way.  Death is something that anyone can find traumatizing and depending on the connection one had with a past alm, determines how life can change both around and mentally for a person.  She didn’t have anyone to blame because her niece wasn’t aware and took the shawl without thinking twice so she went along with her consequences of losing her other half.  She was living in denial about the death of her daughter and never thought about her being gone which is normally a side effect that comes with the depression of a person.
            Another example of despair with the death of her daughter is the fact that she kept her spirit alive.  Rosa would write letters to herself in her daughter’s perspective saying what she’s has done so far with her life.  They talked about many achievements Magda has “accomplished” and how she’s healthy and living successful just as Rosa would have wanted her to turn out or any parent in general.  In my opinion this is her calmative and it’s the only way she can function with the joy of having her daughter around and even though it’s not physically, spiritually she will forever remain in her heart.
Seize the Day by Saul Bellow is about a man named Tommy Wilhelm who lives in a hotel in the upper west side of New York City the same hotel in which his father has resided for a number of years.  As the book starts, it talks about Wilhem on his way to meet his father for breakfast yet something feels uncertain.  He feels fear and lies to come to him soon, and his thoughts are uncovered through his conversations with his father Dr. Adler and others.  He falls in love with a woman named Olive whom he can not marry because his wife would not grant him a divorce.  He meets a psychologist named Dr. Tamkin whom he spends a lot of time with and seems to be his only comfort from the real world.
One melancholic event in this novella has to be the lack of Love wilhelm gets from his father.  Bellow stated, “Now he reflected, In dad’s eyes I am the wrong kind of Jew. He doesn’t like the way I act. Only he is the right kind of Jew. Whatever you are, it always turns out to be the wrong kind” (83).  Earlier in the story he explained how his father disowned him because Wilhelm decided to change his family last name into a better version of it.  His father is really strict and saw that as kind of a sign of disobedience to his religion.  The lack of comfort from his father made him overthink but had to face up to the consequences of being independent.  His father always told him never to have anyone on his back to show him how to become individualistic.
            Last but not least the sadness that was expressed through Seize the Day came from neglection of Wilhelms kids.  Towards the end of the story Tommy makes a phone call to the mother of his kids to tell her how messed up of a week he has had.  The author mentioned, “It isn’t a question of money- there are other things a father can give to a son” (Bellow 106).  This meant that money can’t really buy happiness.  The hint thrown there was that a father can also give love to his kid and one can be satisfied in their own way.  Tommy and his father had miscommunication throughout the whole story which is why is was so difficult for Tommy to even ask his father for a favor.  In other words mentally Wilhelm suffered because he felt alone like he had no one to turn to emotionally but Dr. Tamkin which wasn’t all the way satisfying to Tommy.
            Melancholy is a component in our everyday lifestyle in which we can’t escape.  The idea of deep sadness relates to a poem I read in class.  “Wait for Me” by Konstantin Simonov talk about waiting and how during wartime most soldiers battling never returned back to their loved ones, but that if you believe and wait long enough they might just come back.  The poet Simonov expounds this when he writes, “Wait for me and I'll return, only wait very hard. Wait when you are filled with sorrow as you watch the yellow rain” (1-2).  This meant that although there’s a melancholy feeling due to the event going on around them, having faith and showing some sort of positivity can help.  Not everyone has the same way of coping with specific despondency but as long as a person manages to move on one way or another, reflects on how serious the situation might have been.
Being deeply sad isn’t good for oneself in any way shape or form.  It brings negativity and changes the atmosphere to the way a person lives.  The way people handle their own sorrow all depends on the kind of person you are.  Despite if it’s a family conflict or the passing of another person, melancholy takes effect on people in their own ways.  After reading these two stories I have come to the conclusion that depression can be a result of melancholic events one may go through.  What would Rosa’s daughter actually be like if she were to live? Or Why did Wilky’s kids neglect him? Are the few questions I would ask myself that I would want answers to.  Despair has it’s own way of dealing with, but for Rosa and Tommy it wasn’t easy but they managed to put up with their situations.

Works Cited
"Saul Bellow's Moral Vision." Google Books. N.p., n.d. Web. 06 Apr. 2017.

"Seize the Day." Novels for Students. Ed. Marie Rose Napierkowski. Vol. 4. Detroit: Gale, 1998.
 276-296. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.

"The Shawl." Short Stories for Students. Ed. Kathleen Wilson. Vol. 3. Detroit: Gale, 1998.
285-303. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.

Uzun, Gamze. "A Shawl to Remember: Cynthia Ozick's Narrative against Forgetting in The
Shawl." Pamukkale University Journal of Social Sciences Institute. N.p., n.d. Web. 06

Apr. 2017.

Annotated Bibliography for Critical Analysis Essay

Lesliebeth Rosario
Professors Kratka & Matyakubova
FIQWS
April 24, 2017
Annotated Bibliography
Cynthia Ozick and Saul Bellow

"Saul Bellow's Moral Vision." Google Books. N.p., n.d. Web. 06 Apr. 2017.
            This book is about Saul Bellow and his works.  It gets down into his personal life and the type of works he publishes.  He let’s the readers know his “Moral Vision” on life and all aspects especially the writing of many other works.  This will help me develop my essay by helping me give some background information about the author and his point of view about writing.  It will help make connections from the author to his works because most of his writing reflect of the authors themselves.

"The Shawl." Short Stories for Students. Ed. Kathleen Wilson. Vol. 3. Detroit: Gale, 1998.
285-303. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.
From the Gale Virtual Reference Library comes this article about Cynthia Ozick’s “The Shawl”.  It summarizes the basics of the short story and what conflicts go on as well.  It talks a bit about the author and her personal life as well as connecting it to her works of literature.  This will help me develop the paragraph about Cynthia and the work I chose in order to further develop my claim.

"Seize the Day." Novels for Students. Ed. Marie Rose Napierkowski. Vol. 4. Detroit: Gale, 1998.
 276-296. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.
Last but not least this is also from Gale Virtual reference Library on Saul bellow.  This article focuses more on the text than the author itself while still providing information about him.  It brings out the key ideas on what happened throughout the novella.  This will help me bring out key points from “Seize the Day” and incorporating them into developing my point of view with melancholic events.  It also talks about the author’s connection from the outside world to the world in between lines of a book.






Proposal for Critical Analysis Essay

Lesliebeth Rosario
Professor Matyakubova
FIQWS 10115
April 6, 2017
Critical Analysis Proposal
  Sadness Comes from Within
There are many things that make a person the way they are which makes us all unique.  Some people are naturally sad and others the complete opposite.  For Rosa Lublin and Tommy Wilhelm this was different as both undergo a melancholy feeling throughout their experiences.  I will construct this critical analysis by using both textual evidence and background information to describe how their feelings of unhappiness and despair interfered with their everyday life after tragic events.  Also using the Gale Virtual Reference Library and physical copies, I will get articles and databases as well as quotes to support the theme overall.
            “Rosa” by Cynthia Ozick is about a woman named Rosa a few years after the devastation of  one of the world's most tragic events known as the Holocaust.  The melancholic occurrence she went through was while on line at the concentration camps she lost her only daughter Magda due to the foolish actions of her niece Stella.  Rosa was hiding her daughter under a shawl to protect her from being exposed and killed off if spotted.  Unfortunately Stella was cold and accidentally took the shawl from Rosa to cover herself and there Magda was taken by a guard and thrown against an electric fence where she died, Rosa could not live with this trauma now hunting her.  This connects with Saul Bellow’s “Seize the Day” as the main character lives with the constant thought of rejection.  This novella is about a young man named Tommy Wilhelm and his day at the apartment building he lives in as he describes his father and how they no longer have the same connection they used to have back then.  His father seems to live in denial as his son changed his name and went “against his religion” by doing son.  Tommy also has kids that don’t speak to him as well which is pretty sad.  Some of many questions I want to uncover while assembling this research paper are; What would Rosa’s daughter be like if she were to live? And Why did Wilhelm’s kids neglect him? So that their deep depression can somehow decrease.

 Works Cited:
Uzun, Gamze. "A Shawl to Remember: Cynthia Ozick's Narrative against Forgetting in The
Shawl." Pamukkale University Journal of Social Sciences Institute. N.p., n.d. Web. 06
Apr. 2017.
"Saul Bellow's Moral Vision." Google Books. N.p., n.d. Web. 06 Apr. 2017.
"The Shawl." Short Stories for Students. Ed. Kathleen Wilson. Vol. 3. Detroit: Gale, 1998.
285-303. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.
"Seize the Day." Novels for Students. Ed. Marie Rose Napierkowski. Vol. 4. Detroit: Gale, 1998.

 276-296. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 6 Apr. 2017.

Exploratory Essay (Author Study)

Lesliebeth Rosario
FIQWS 10115
Professors Krata & Matyakobova
March 15, 2017
Exploratory Essay
A Flower Bloomed in a Dark Room
            In New York City, on April 17, 1928, Cynthia Ozick was born.  Like most writers, their passions come from within and slowly over time develop into amazing pieces that entertain us  all.  Jewish born writer and translator Cynthia was part of many associations for her creativeness and speciality of her short stories and novels from the Authors League of America to the National Endowment for the Arts fellow.  She writes from different characters points of views and tells the warm stories of being Jewish and going through the life changing event known as the holocaust.  She didn’t really focus on a specific genre she was more in the general side, but most of her amazing work comes from the fiction side.  Despite the details on how growing up was like for her, she tries to show a positive, negative and sassy side through one of her infamous  characters Rosa.
            Ozick started out as the delivery girl for her parent’s pharmacy and often working 14-hour shifts and working until almost 1 am most nights.  Studying at her local school P.S. 71 in the Bronx, she felt as if she didn’t belong due to other students making her feel inadequate while at home she was brilliantly intelligent.  Since she was really good in spelling and grammar, writing was as easy as ever so she just let her imagination do the talking.  Ozick owes her metamorphosis as a writer to her mother’s brother who happened to be a Hebrew poet, as sort of her inspiration although to her being a Jew came with hardships.  She tends to say that where she came from in the Bronx it was brutally difficult to be a Jew because there was constant racial slurs and actions on a daily towards her and whoever else shared the same Jewish traditions.
            Reality sort of hit Ozick when she got to Hunter College High School in Manhattan.  That’s when she started to realize that writing helped her get through with her everyday lifestyle and the horrors behind it.   At this point in her life she focused a lot in writing more on the Jewish side to kind of show that there’s more to being part of the religion than meets the eye, but she was open to any other categories.   Her works range from non-fiction, fiction, to even being known as a writer’s writer, which means her intellect is conductive to flashes of  brilliance.  From 1957-1963 while writing another famous novel called “Trust”, she underwent a cultural transformation and became a Jewish autodidact which made her master herself Jewish textual tradition.  Although she found herself mainly writing about the culture itself, she struggled with the title “Jewish writer” because she didn’t want to portray herself as if she was focusing on one certain group of people but more so people of all places worldwide can find interest in any piece of writing she has to offer.
            After she received one of the most precious gifts from her brother, books, Cynthia felt as if they were her only escape from reality during her early years.   She knew she was going to have a life long relationship with the source and the bond was going to be unbreakable.  I love how Ozick started off with short stories then moving on to more complex texts like novels because it shows how there isn’t a limit to what you can do.  She helped me realize that as long as you’re doing what you love and do best, don’t stop until you get enough.
            From a short story and novelist writer to an essayist she has came a long way both physically and in her writings.  You wouldn’t picture stories having to do with tragic events to be any type of smile worthy, but Ozick has the ability to make a bad situation look somewhat bright with her humorous characteristic.  Cynthia Ozick not only is a strong woman but she’s a strong writer.  Her works consists of thousands of rhetorical terms that only make the writings more detailed and will leave you thinking on a bigger picture because 8/10 there always is a bigger picture.
Above shows the talented Cynthia Ozick in her 2011 writing interview about her life as a writer in general and how far she has come.  
Courtesy of The Guardian.

Works Cited:

"Ozick, Cynthia (1928-)." Major 21st-Century Writers. Ed. Tracey Matthews and Tracey Watson. Vol. 4. Detroit: Gale, 2005. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 7 Mar. 2017.

Summary & Response Essay (Cynthia Ozick)

Lesliebeth Rosario
FIQWS 10015 & 10115
Professors Kratka & Matyakobova
February 20, 2017
Summary & Response

A Seemingless Connection
            There are many characteristics that make a person unique.  It can either be their hair, looks, or nationality.  In the case of “The Shawl’ by Cynthia Ozick many characters are discriminated because they are Jewish and the story is being taken place during the Holocaust.  6 million Jews were killed in concentration camps by Nazis under the control of Adolf Hitler.  It’s about three main characters, Rosa a mother, Magda “the baby, the pet, the little sister” of Rosa, and Stella her wildcat niece.  Due to the situation going on around them kids were separated from their loved ones but Rosa fears that her only daughter Magda will get killed if she disobeys and gets out of the line walking them to the concentration camps or if she makes contact with anyone else in order to save her.  What she does is she keeps her hidden under a shall the whole time.  At one point Stella was cold so she took the shawl from Rosa exposing Magda, which resulted in a guard discovering her and throwing her against an electric fence instantly killing her.  The author uses symbolism with the shawl itself and how it resembles the tallit or Jewish prayer shawl and how to wrap oneself in the shawl is to be surrounded by the holiness and protection of the commandments.
            I feel like the Holocaust as a whole was one of the most devastating events that has ever happened for many reasons.  One being that kids shouldn’t have to pay for consequences they can’t control.  Being born Jewish isn’t a choice so it’s not like anyone had an option of not being taken in if they were Jewish.  Stella should have just huddled and find a different way to keep herself warm and not have to reach over at Rosa and take her belonging, that was an invasion of space.  Especially if she was hiding a precious life that could have been saved a little longer if it wasn’t for Stella’s unthinkable actions.  I agree with Rosa in hiding her in the first place because she was closely attached to her in a deep way.  It was almost as if Magda was Rosa's sedative for the moment and being with her helped Rosa get her mind of the devastation that is surrounding her.
“Rosa” also by Cynthia Ozick is the follow up of Rosa, whom was introduced in “The Shawl”, thirty years later living a “meager, isolated existence” in a hotel for the elderly which is financed by her niece, Stella.  This short story starts off with Rosa in a laundromat and is approached by a elder flirtatious man who comes from the same place, Warsaw, Poland.  She is quick to tell him her Warsaw is not his Warsaw for the simple fact that they didn’t quite go through the same things.  Still devastated by the death of her daughter, Rosa writes letters to her to keep her spirit alive in order to feel sane and better about herself.  Irony appears in “Rosa” in a few different parts some humorous and some tragic.  For example, Rosa survived the Holocaust only to be confined in Miami with some of the same people she had so much contempt in her earlier life.
I believe that any mother who was so close to their only kid to then have it all taken away in the matter of seconds is never going to view life in the same way.  I personally love the fact that she kept her daughter, Magda, alive with writing her letters as years go by because it’s almost as if Rosa experienced everything Magda “accomplished” so far in her life.  I don’t know if I could live knowing I witnessed my own kids death, but the fact that she kept her life ongoing shows that overall Rosa is a strong independent woman and she can get through any obstacle. 
 Being Jewish at the time wasn’t easy at all.  It came with discrimination, alienation, and complete hatred for everyone who happened to be apart of race.  Rosa showed she was a strong woman both during and after the Holocaust by never breaking character and keeping herself motivated by keeping Magda’s spirit alive at all times.  Something that stood out to me would have to be when Persky, the flirtatious elderly from the laundromat, said, "I work from a different theory. For everything there's a bad way of describing, also a good way. You pick the good way, you get along better."  To my interpretation this means that no matter what happens in life, there’s always a good and a bad.  It is just up to you to decide how you want to view it and how you’re gonna process the situations, to then give off what would be the tone in your mood and makes you either a happy person or miserable in general.

Works Cited:
"The Shawl." Short Stories for Students. Ed. Kathleen Wilson. Vol. 3. Detroit: Gale, 1998. 285-303. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 28 Feb. 2017.

"Rosa." Short Stories for Students. Ed. Ira Mark Milne. Vol. 22. Detroit: Gale, 2006. 216-241. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 28 Feb. 2017.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Final Revised Literacy Narrative

A Four Year Journey
Living in such a big city like mine, you never know what obstacles or people you may encounter on a everyday basis.  New York City also known as ‘The Big Apple’ is not necessarily a fruit but more like a beating heart that is powered by the circulation of everyone around constantly on the move. I grew up in Washington Heights which is located in upper Manhattan like my whole life.  My childhood was very adventurous and different.  I lived in a studio room in a basement with 3 other family members and had a backyard that can be almost anything once I put my imagination to it.  I would always find myself either playing doctor or teacher and always had my older brother to guide me through rights and wrongs.  He was my role model- well until I got older and then common sense hit us both that was.  I didn’t really move around from my neighborhood but after graduating middle school, I knew a four year journey was about to commence.
As a young Latina with immigrant parents and low income, going to college almost seemed out of reach.  During my high school years I found myself with little to no sense of direction with so many options.  Ever since I was a little a girl I’ve always wanted to be a homicide detective and spent most of my hours during my free time watching any investigation show that came up.  Realistically I ended up going to The High School of Fashion Industries.  How did I end up there you may ask?  Funny story and I advise you that from personal experience do not follow my footsteps.  I’m not one to adapt to new changes so easily.   I always feel more comfortable when I either know the people or the atmosphere.  In this case I decided to go into the school because I knew two people from my middle school whom were going as well.  Fashion is something that never really interested me at all and I did not think about that at the time since I was too busy paying attention to the girls stepping into the next four years of my life with me.  Once I was in and couldn’t really do much to transfer nor switch my major, I kind of had to suck it up and move along with it.  At Fashion I was taught everything from designing on a piece of paper to bringing my images to life.  It wasn’t easy studying and having to learn everything about a topic you’re not interested in so I did struggle with keeping up both in class and with my grades.  After the first two years went by I started to get a little more interested because I started learning something different, I went from drawing crazy symmetrical shapes and abstract objects to draping on a blank canvas on top of a croqui (mannequin).  What once was a hassle was now part of my daily routine so I just did what I had to do.
My Fashion instructors all knew where I was coming from and knew I did poorly because of my lack of interest towards the major but they still cooperated with me as well as I did with them.  In my senior year, my teacher at the time Ms. David had spoken to me about a opportunity to design a outfit for Valentine’s day made out of bubble wrap, and I just completely gave up.  I did not think of how I was going to accomplish that, I just thought about the material and how impossible it was going to be working with it.  My school had received 3 rolls of large bubble wrap and it was up to us to come up with a garment using this resource.  That challenge was made by the Huffington Post and we who were selected went down to their building down at Soho, Manhattan and got interviewed on the overall experience with creating wearable bubble wrap.  “I love the dress, I can sense a winner!” Said one of the judges as my heart beat almost out of my chest while walking and posing on the mini runway in front of what seemed like a thousand cameras. “As nervous as I am right now, I’m here to represent and give this interview my all.” That was the last thing I said to the judges before finishing a successful interview.  As I waited for the other nominees to finish their part I sat nervously eating pizza while taking some shots to promote throughout the school.  “And the winner is… Araya! Congratulations!” My soul nearly left my body because I was so proud of my achievement I was so sure I was at least going to come out in second place, but everything happens for a reason, and I wasn’t going to let that affect me knowing I learned a lot from the overall experience itself.

I will never forget the struggles of keeping up and forcing myself to learn something I was completely unfamiliar and uninterested in.  I went through phases that were almost impossible for me but I managed to keep up.  The world is full of so many not yet discovered things that there is unlimited possibilities on what you can do as a career or life in general.  Not only did that event help me realize that you can’t always judge a topic by its cover and that it is always good to try something out before you can say you like it or not, but it also helped me realize that I have a CTE High School diploma majoring in fashion and as a plan B I might consider opening my own clothing line if investigating a cause of death goes left.  What seemed to be one of my biggest obstacles in my life was now considered part of a daily routine that is stuck with me ready to use wherever I go.  Although I complained daily, it is safe to say I sometimes miss having to stitch up a few fabric rolls.
Courtesy of  The Huffington Post.

Course Reflection for FIQWS 10115 (Final)

Lesliebeth Rosario FIQWS 10115 Professor Matyakubova May 16, 2017 Course Reflection Throughout the whole semester of  FIQWS 101...